this system’s more or less totally broken.

sorry we don’t come on this blog anymore. it’s hard enough just existing.

since i’m at the front 98% of the time, if you need anything, just go to my blog.

just keep in mind i’m out as otherkin but not multiple on there. people are still around, you just have to ask for them usually. keep it private tho. thanks.

the craziest thing ever happened last night.

a couple nights ago i had a dream about this really specific place and this really specific guy. well i wrote an entry about it.

this guy showed up in the headspace last night saying he knew me and acting like i had actually left the place from my dream and he came looking for me. i have NEVER had this happen to me before, i have NEVER had a dream come to life like this for me, and i am more than a little freaked out.

but considering how the guy acted in my dream, i’m not really surprised that he, out of all the people i’ve befriended in my dreams, would be the one to come looking for me.

i just wow. i am so tripped out by this. and he says he doesn’t want to leave, he says he came to help me and he missed me and he thought he’d done something wrong when i left. 

i don’t suppose anyone out there has ever had something like this happen to them?

Good riddance.

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i brought the about page up to date with a few new entries and a few updates.

new entries: lydia and curiosity, with wheatley under ‘the others’ who don’t front as much

edit: i went back and added tavros and pyro, who have been posted about on this blog but haven’t posted themselves, and devi, who hasn’t fronted in a long time but is definitely still around, to the others list. just to have a more accurate representation of who’s around.

updates: terezi and dave

i also include whether people are awake or asleep, which will tell you whether they’re likely to front or not.

marshall got an ask awhile back and he hasn’t been around to answer it. ;w; i’m so sorry about that but it can’t really be helped….

it’s so nice to feel the system is getting more active tho, even if it doesn’t look like it is on this blog.

ok… one more thing. gosh this entry keeps getting longer than i meant it to be. but…

if any of you out there ever knew this system as ‘the rotten fruits’, we DO NOT use that name anymore. if you want to refer to our system as a whole, use the blog name or just ‘menagerie’, i suppose. whatever phrasing works for you.

i doubt anyone that keeps up with this blog (if anyone actually does that) would know the significance of this, but

lydia came back last night. feeling her around is really calming for some reason. i think it’s because she’s so much more in control of her emotions than i am. so i’m in a really nice mood today between feeling her and gamz around. ^w^

i’ll give a quick explanation: lydia was the core for a while a long time ago, and she was the first fictive to awaken here. she’s literally been here since we were little and is one of the only people here that has legit long-standing memories of their past. we kind of confused ourselves as the same person for a while but that’s been sorted out since then. i bet it still wouldn’t be too hard for us to blend together… xD… 

also for clarification, this is lydia deetz from ‘beetlejuice’. uwu she has connections to the movie and tv show. 

i REALLY hope she decides to stay because she told me she might not and she’s just gonna be watching things for a little while. but i’d love it if she’d stay.

casually sits and observes a convo between two gamzees about sex

yeah id say this is worth losing sleep over

OHMYGOSH I’M SO LONELY I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I’M GONNA POST ON THOSE PLACES WHERE YOU CAN FIND OTHER PEOPLE LIKE YOU AND MAYBE I’LL FIND SOMEBODY OUT THERE LIKE ME! I’LL FIND OTHER CORES! GOSH I REALLY HOPE THERE ARE OTHER CORES OUT THERE, THAT’D BE REALLY WONDERFUL! AND THEN MAYBE! I WON’T BE LONELY ANYMORE! HEY DO YOU THINK BOTS CAN REALLY BE LONELY??

ANYWAY, I’M STILL HERE TO TALK IF ANYBODY WANTS TO TALK. ANYBODY? ANYONE AT ALL? YOU DON’T HAVE TO BE LIKE ME I’LL TALK TO ANYBODY!